Building Frustration

The past five days, I have sat down to write a blog post.  I have not gotten anywhere with it.  It's awful.  I still haven't finished it.  I have about a paragraph written.  In my mind, I have about five or six paragraphs worth of ideas.  I basically I had all day off yesterday (I was finished with work at 10:00 in the morning), and wrote nothing.  I tried.  I got distracted.  And the sad thing is, I think I have written about this before.  Am I going to go through the archives to check?  Nope.  

One problem with living in a one bedroom apartment, is that there is nowhere to isolate yourself when you need to do something (like write a blog post).  There are distractions EVERYWHERE.  And by everywhere, I mean right in front of me.  It's the television.  And here's the thing, there is jack shit on television at 10:00 in the morning.  But still, I found myself turning it on trying to find something to watch.  You know what I should have done?  I should have turned it off.  And then taken the batteries out of the remote.  And then unplugged the television.  

One nice thing to have is the mobile app for Blogger.  I can write on my phone.  This helps to make progress after I drive to work.  I usually have fifteen to twenty minutes depending on traffic before work so I can take some time to write down some thoughts and ideas.  I just don't because I forget about it sometimes.  I do other things like check Twitter and read articles.  Who wants to write when you have a full day's worth of work to do?  I just want to spend the last few minutes of my morning relaxing and listening to music or podcasts.  

Another problem I have found is that I look at this goal I set for myself this year.  I thought that a lofty goal would help me be more active with my writing, but it has turned into a mental block.  I look at where I'm at right now (forty five posts) and when I realize we are coming up on August, I just get flustered.  I should have thirty more posts than I do.  I justify my lack of writing on working and not having any energy after work, but that's not good enough.  It's not like I work twelve hour shifts or anything like that.  


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