Take the damn hint

Coming up in January, the store is posting an opening for a spot that is right above me, referred to as the senior team lead. Basically, more responsibility, more pay, and some more headaches. A few more people would be working below the position. Taking that into mind, my first reaction was 'is the frustration worth it?'. Then my second thought went to how long I've been working there. Not even two years...not a whole lot of time to gain tons of experience. However...

Last week, I was talking with my store manager, she was the first to mention the position to me, and she said that I should apply for it. My first reaction was, meh...maybe. Then my second thought was about not knowing enough to cover the position. And I also thought that she was just trying to feel out the waters and how I would react. And then...

Today, one of the senior team leads now mentioned that I should apply for it stating that I'm really responsible and so on and so on. And looking at it, that is really scary. Scary how I can be so responsible at work, but when it comes to being outside of work, it isn't necessarily true. Part of me thinks that my store manager talked about me to the senior team lead and they are conspiring to get this thought in my mind. In all honesty, I can say that I am not the most responsible person in the world, or the state, or the city, or the apartment for that matter. Oh, it's true, Andrea is way more responsible than I am. That is a given.

But still, this thought has been planted in my mind. What if...Do people at work take me that seriously that a couple of people think I can go above where I am at right now? Would I ever be able to take it above that level...to the executive level? Could I ever become salaried? Very doubtful...very doubtful.

But what if I fail?

What if I don't get the position?

Is that really failure?