I don't know why I just thought about this, but have you ever wondered how you got to this spot in life? I'm talking about right now, this very instant. Every aspect of your life, love life, work life, life life. How do we arrive at this point? I guess this came into my mind a couple of days ago talking about calling Kansas home.
I guess I'll start with school. A and I agreed we would move to wherever the first fitting job came to. So that is how we ended up here. Her degree was a bit more marketable in the bachelor sense. Mine, not so much in the bachelor sense...mine is more fitted for masters or ever phd...but I don't have the patience to sit in school for all those years. Plus, I don't think of myself as the smartest person in the world, and I don't think I could have handled all the stress and even more learning. I would have gone insane. So we moved away from Michigan (sadly) and from family (even sadder).
Moving out meant having to take on more responsibility and the whatnot. Now one thing that was a weekly routine for me living at home was church. Every weekend we would go. I understand the importance of it to people and even the importance of the 'great mysteries' in life. But my adult mind doesn't really work that way. I need to see the hard evidence. So I don't go to church anymore. Heartbreaking to my family, I'm sure. But I just can't find a reason to go...any questions I have, I have answers to.
Living in my mid-twenties the way the world is right now, can make you either angry towards the government or venegful towards those who question authority. I would like to say that I have a distinct political value to my life, but I don't. I don't let people tell me what to think. I try my hardest to listen to issues and choose whichever I see fit. Most times, I don't give a shit. Some of the things people get up in arms about is just rediculous. To follow a political figure based on what they believe in (be in war, marriage, abortion [just a few hot topic issues]) isn't being mindful, it is being a sheep. Just being a follower. Don't settle for what someone wants you to think. Think for yourselves. I don't have all the answers to political bullshit. I don't follow it. I just listen every once in a while and base my opinions on that.
So here I sit, four days after I turned twenty-six. The youngest (or close to it) in both groups of friends I have. I find myself enjoying my job (for the most part). I can't stand the turn over rate at work, it puts a shit ton of stress on me while I'm there. I do have days when the alarm goes off at five o'clock (yes, five o'clock) and I just want to call in. But I have the thought of having to go in the next day and make up for the work that didn't get done on the day I called in. So I deal with it. Eventually, and I don't know when, that aspect of work will smooth out for me. Not everyone can be millionaires doing lines of coke off of dead hookers, some of us have to get in the work trenches and deal with shit.
Unfortunately, I am a foot soldier for the working world.
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